15 5 / 2012
As I Walked Out One Evening by W. H. Auden, read by Tom Hiddleston
As I walked out one evening, Walking down Bristol Street, The crowds upon the pavement Were fields of harvest wheat. And down by the brimming river I heard a lover sing Under an arch of the railway: 'Love has no ending. 'I'll love you, dear, I'll love you Till China and Africa meet, And the river jumps over the mountain And the salmon sing in the street, 'I'll love you till the ocean Is folded and hung up to dry And the seven stars go squawking Like geese about the sky. 'The years shall run like rabbits, For in my arms I hold The Flower of the Ages, And the first love of the world.' But all the clocks in the city Began to whirr and chime: 'O let not Time deceive you, You cannot conquer Time. 'In the burrows of the Nightmare Where Justice naked is, Time watches from the shadow And coughs when you would kiss. 'In headaches and in worry Vaguely life leaks away, And Time will have his fancy To-morrow or to-day. 'Into many a green valley Drifts the appalling snow; Time breaks the threaded dances And the diver's brilliant bow. 'O plunge your hands in water, Plunge them in up to the wrist; Stare, stare in the basin And wonder what you've missed. 'The glacier knocks in the cupboard, The desert sighs in the bed, And the crack in the tea-cup opens A lane to the land of the dead. 'Where the beggars raffle the banknotes And the Giant is enchanting to Jack, And the Lily-white Boy is a Roarer, And Jill goes down on her back. 'O look, look in the mirror, O look in your distress: Life remains a blessing Although you cannot bless. 'O stand, stand at the window As the tears scald and start; You shall love your crooked neighbour With your crooked heart.' It was late, late in the evening, The lovers they were gone; The clocks had ceased their chiming, And the deep river ran on.
(Source: lazyocean)
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06 5 / 2012
ice cream
I was waiting for this man, about your age, your profile, digging his way through gallons of ice cream deciding on which flavor to get. Ice cream was one favorite we share. You sort of dropped in on me and I realized how much I miss you. I miss missing you and feel like I’m betraying you for not visiting enough or thinking about you enough. It’s true that I feel bad with work right now and I know it’s not even a tenth of what you had been through before but still I wish I thought of you enough.
I’m sorry that this is how I cope with your absence. I do not forget, I just choose to go on because they need me to be all right and that I need to take care of them. And maybe if I let this work occupy the rest of my time I wouldn’t feel so bad about losing you because it would be like I’m doing something right, something that you would have wanted me to be doing as well.
Will I disappoint with giving this up? It’s not so much of giving up actually, it’s more of giving my self a chance to choose what I want to do for the rest of my life that would satisfy my soul and make things feel all right.
I would like to think, should you have been around, you would eventually understand and support me. I could only hope.
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19 4 / 2012
You would always want to do the right thing. But what should be the RIGHT THING? Is it pleasing everyone; reaching a decision where everyone’s favored and happy? If only there are clear cut solutions to everyday problems, such a cliche, but wouldn’t that be just tooo…perfect impossible.
Here’s the thing, the RIGHT THING is never perfect, is not always the happy choice for everyone but if give each other time to sort things out, work on trying to make things easier for each other not just for yourself, then maybe we’d surprise each other and arrive at set up that suits what you and I need the most.
am almost tired. :(
15 4 / 2012
6k
A day to make things happen.
If you knew me, you’d know I would be the last one to make a dash for things. If there was a monster about to make a meal out of me, most likely, I’d sit and wait for it to be done and over with. Simply because, I don’t want to tire myself out, only to still be eaten in the end. Such a sloth, I know.
Just one of things I joke myself with thinking I’d be coaxed into crazy fun run thing. Hah! Me running around, yeah right. But I proved myself wrong, yet again, by doing something out of whim and doing something worthwhile. I’m glad that I got into this “fancy-me-doing…” mood. Had a great time and enjoyed this experience. Hurrah for this girl!!!!
From here on, the race begins on me believing and trusting oneself. There’s definitely more to come. To surprises, achievements, and experiences….life :)
P.S. how i wish i looked as ridiculously gorgeous as this guy when i was running, but wouldn’t want to distract other runners and ruin a good cause
~ how’s that for trying on “ridiculously photogenic guy” meme…haha ^^
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12 4 / 2012
just saying.
Sometimes, you can’t help but wish to be worthy of someone’s company. Be that person good enough to be with them. But the truth is, you shouldn’t have to be anyone other than yourself if they are indeed worthy of your company.
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